Goodbye August and Good Riddance!!!

Good riddance to the month of August!!! The whole month was rather annoying and terrible.  Filled with a whole lot of drama!  Geez!  And I'm really wishing that I could go back to the way that I was before August happened.... before I discovered the convenience of online casinos.  And before I started getting all hung up on getting hung up on people.  It was only a month a go that I was perfectly content to simply go to work and then come home and be by myself in my room and enjoy my privacy.  I didn't have any confusing or annoying feelings for anyone; wasn't all infatuated and gooey-eyed and stuck thinking about someone all the time.  And I wasn't lonely either.  I was freaking content!!  I know how much energy and head space being infatuated with someone takes, and I was actually really grateful to NOT be that way.

   BUT THEN - (enter August, stage left) - There's just been so much stupid and annoying shit that happened this month - I got ripped off by an old friend of mine who used to be so trustworthy! I'm too tired to bother with writing about it all.  So I'm just going to skip ahead to the 'man trouble' portion of this episode.

    But it wasn't just one guy that got me all f**ked up in the head - it was 3 of them - each of them kind of contributed in their own way (along with me) to the little bit of a mess that I am now.

#1 was a pretty good friend of mine who I've known for several years.  He was one of the few people who wrote me the entire time I was in prison.  We slept together a couple times this August (having slept together once before right after I got out of prison.)  I insisted I didn't want him to get too attached to me (for fear of ruining our friendship.)  But then apparently I got upset when he didn't.  Plus there's the whole added factor of his on-again off-again girlfriend who he's apparently in love with.  I got to meet said girlfriend in person one night - a night which involved a lot of everyone fighting with everyone else (there were fistfights and cops and broken glass oh my!)  That night I made sure to tell him I didn't want him to ever even look at me again let alone talk to me.  Somewhere in there after drinking more, I may have even texted him telling him something like he was the spawn of Satan... Anyway that same night, I met #2..... 

#2 was a one-night stand who's really good friends with #1.  He is also the only one of these 3 guys who doesn't use meth anymore.  (That was impressive to me - reminded me of  what I also could be strong enough to do.)  I think I was initially reciprocating the attention #2 was paying to me in order to bother #1.  Of course #1 just ended up coming up to #2 in the bar and started letting him know that I was one of the coolest chicks he's ever known and how I'm a good friend and blah blah... It was at that point that I told #1 that I didn't need a cheerleader thank you very much and to fuck off.  Anyway #2  and I had a bunch of strange funny little things in common.  He turned out to be cute, smart, and funny, and we had a total blast - before, during and after sleeping together.  Without meaning to I got a little attached (how is that possible after only spending one night with someone?!!!)  But in the end (about a week later) I ended up sending him a text message asking him please to delete my number from his phone as I was doing the same.

#3 was the guy that I was TOTALLY hung up on right before I went to prison.  He was kind of a selfish dick then and apparently he's still a selfish dick now.  He doesn't live in the same town as me, he actually lives in Phoenix, which is about an hour and a half away.  This guy just popped back into my life recently.  I still haven't seen him since before I went into prison, but as of last weekend, he made plans to come pick me up and we were supposed to go out of town for Thursday and Friday.  So I got my shifts at work covered for those days.  But only after checking with him several times to see that he was SURE he was going to make it.  He has a history of being a flake and  I didn't really want to give up a Friday night shift since it can be good money.  But he ASSURED me that he'd be here Thursday early in the morning and he'd bring some "really good shit" for me (as in dope, duh) when he came. 

So I made sure to get all shaved (by which I don't mean my legs although I did those too!)  

And I packed my pretty underwear.... 

And then of course, he stood me the fuck up.  And I was reminded just how flaky he is.  He used to do this kind of shit all the time back in the days when he and I sort of had a thing (or at least, when I had a thing.)  So I ended up sending him a text message that told him to go ahead and delete my number from his phone since I was going to do the same (this is apparently my new favorite thing to text to people.)

  Anyway, that's the condensed version of my recent man troubles.  The really condensed version.  

And like I mentioned earlier, August sucked.  Goodbye August and Good Riddance!!!